The past months I felt like I was walking on thin ice and any moment I could just fall deep down in cold waters and sink into oblivion. There were days when I wanted to just crawl into a ball and cry myself to sleep. But most days I carry on with my life trying to be okay because I had to be for the sake of my loved ones.
I thank God for work because it kept my mind from all the things I did not want to think about. But sometimes the painful memories finds itself slowly into consciousness and I battle with myself every time the hurt sets in.
You may see me with a smile on my face, but behind those smiles is a woman who has gone through her worst nightmares but managed to wake up from it and face a brand new day.
Things are much better now. Everything is where they are supposed to be. I thank the Lord for giving me the strength to face each day with a happy heart. Of course there are bad days but I never let it get the best of me.
I have learned that every day is a work in progress. That we should learn to live each day as it comes and try not to worry about what happens next. I too am a work in progress. There are times when I fall into the sadness spell, but I guess that is okay as long as I know how to snap out of it before it eats me up whole.
In summary, I guess no matter what you have been through, no matter how difficult things are right now. I promise you, things will be okay. You will be okay. Believe me I have been there, and I can say that I am more than okay.
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